anxiety attack

11:35 we can only go up from here
i got a response. it isnt exactly what i wanted, but we dont always get what we want in life right. its a first step tho. and im just glad. and happy. and relieved. :')

10:35pm
bruise and cuts from god knows where so pissed off with myself so pissed off i let the people i love down so bloody pissed off.

i am having an anxiety attack now haha i am so nervous my heart is pounding time is passing too slowly hahaha oh god. i passed him my journal, what i really feel about everything (a more in depth and crude version of the past few posts) and omg i am n-e-r-v-o-u-s gahhhhhhhhh with every minute i get more anxious haha omg omg omg listening to jay chou to help me with my nerves hahahahahaha WO HEN PROUD WO SHI HUA REN OMG HAHAHA wish me luck guys i hope i get the reaction i want. if not. i really did it give it my all.