beautiful people

to all the beautiful boys and girls who bother reading this space, thank you :>

so this song is for all of you, haha because this is my new fav song. 

i hope you guys like it too

xx.

sigh

numb, again.

instant lightness in the chest.

You take people for granted, to be specific, you take me for granted. When I asked, you will not do it. But if someone else asks, you would. Because you know no matter what, I'll always be here. No matter how jerk-ish, bastard-y, no matter. But I cant exactly blame you, because I let myself be taken for granted. And on a lighter note, thank you for being honest.

just maybe

maybe you're right, maybe after all, i really don't know you.
.
.
but i'd like to think i do. and maybe i really do.
this post doesn't make any sense at all.

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When I'm nervous, I talk too much. Too much for my own good. it's gross, but I dont know what else to do with all that excess energy. And I giggle too ha ha.
About 2 weeks ago, I broke up with the person I swear I love so much, again, too much for my own good. The day I broke up with him, I was numb ha ha, for real. It only really hit me  the second day. I tell you, the second and third day were like, ok. I was drenched in tears. Ha ha what a good summary. My reasons for leaving were almost, even I want to slap myself... But I feel good now, though I still think of him almost everyday.
Oh, I made a new friend. He has the coolest name haha but I will not blog it/ about him.
Ok, I'll just add, he has a vvv nice smile :> This post doesn't make sense, I just feel like blogging.

tattoo

omg i just saw the most beautiful but the ugliest at the same time. i want to die. lol. oh anw this morning on the bus one girl want to show off her tattoo. ok to be fair her tattoo is really nice. but she trying to hard. she sat in the weirdest position ever just so i will look and after i took one quick glance she still maintain la, like try. then after a while, she just sit properly haha i think she cannot tank or what. LOL. i want to get a tattoo. behind my shoulder blade. im gonna write something there. nvm i tank the pain. lol.

skip the charade

The one who lets go, or the one who was let go hurts more?
i need a dairy this is too personal to be up here.

He won't go

Some say i'll be better without you
But they don't know you like i do,
or at least the sides i thought i knew.

I can't bear this time
It drags on as i lose my mind
Reminded by things i find,
like notes and clothes you left behind.

Wake me up, wake me up when all is done.
I won't rise until this battle's won,
my dignity become undone.

But i won't go,
i can't do this on my own.
If this ain't love, then what is?
Im willing to take the risk.

I won't go
I can't do it all alone.
If this ain't love, then what is?
Im willing to take the risk.

So petrified, i'm so scared to step into this ride.
What is i lose my heart and fail declined?
I won't forgive me if i give up trying.

I heard his voice today,
i didn't know a single word he said.
Not one resemblance to the man i met,
just a vacant, broken boy instead.

But i won't go,

i can't do this on my own.

If this ain't love, then what is?

Im willing to take the risk.

I won't go

I can't do it all alone.

If this ain't love, then what is?

Im willing to take the risk.

(this verse isnt my situation)

will he still love me even when he's free?

or will he go back to the place

where he would choose the poison over me?