if you love me so much then why'd you let me go

haha i actually disagree with my title bc i did (and still do) love him alot when i let him go when he wanted a break. i mean, it was precisely bc i love him so much that i did it for him. o love....so selfless and selfish all at once. but anyhow, ive decided that i should start saving myself. i mean, if we are really meant to be, this shit aint got nothing on us hahahahaha like he said he'll want a fair chance to fight for my love again when the time comes but right now, im just gna let him sort his things out. i really wanted to help him, save him from his own demons, and i really did stay strong and have faith for the both of us but..........this is enough. i just weighed myself i am fucking 41kg the fuck i lost 4-5kg in 2 weeks!!!! (girls weight loss tip) this shit is so crazy, and i cant be sad forever. it hurts me so much that the people around me are sad bc i am sad haha ytd at dinner my aunt literally came up to me and hugged me and choked on her own tears to tell me to be happy again. and i know everytime i cry my parents hearts shatter a little haha and really my sister who sleeps with me lol i cannot even begin to imagine the shit she went through and all my friends ah what would i do without them hehe they really are the best, bc friends dont break up with friends hahahahaha i love all of you. i love all of you so much
and this is to mirabelle i dont like you n its not you its human nature in fact you actually look like a nice person but i just dont like you haha. so i hope you dont go wtf this bitch is so fucking cray (but i am actually a bitch whose cray) he is not a problematic child (yes im crazy and stalkerish like this) the hell?!?!??!?!?! look at all these pictures SO WHAT if he cant smile right so what if he has an awkward smile, at least hes happy

so yeah i dont like you. PLEASE dont get drunk at 2am again i mean the night just started!!!!!!!!!! (this is female to female take care of yourself you will not always have a friend like leroy who wont take advantage of your drunkness and shit (being real right here female to female haha))

and this is to everyone whos been reading this space through my break up (i was so bored i actually checked my stats 200+ views a day thanks!! ^^), i hope i didnt make anyone sad or anything and if youre going through a break up yourself, AIYA YOU JUST GOTTA BE STRONG FOR YOURSELF AND THE PEOPLE WHO REALLY LOVE YOU. haha goodnight.