finally

ive never understood when people say you expect more from a boyfriend than from a friend. in fact, igen just told me this 2 nights ago but it didnt really make sense till i opened the fridge this morning and saw a box of green tea kit kat. its just bloody kit kat but i stood there, just staring at it and it finally made sense. ENLIGHTENMENT LOL. leroy told me 4 weeks ago (before the break up) that he would bring me some and as the days go by that we met up and i never did receive any i was like mehhh. i mean its just kit kat and its not like i love green tea kit kats lol. i guess it was the fact he said it but never did it. igen told me he'll bring some to cheer me up and 2 days later its in the fridge. im not saying leroys a bad boyfriend in fact hes the best this is just one of the very few things he said but never did.

this past week has been hell legit hell ive balled my eyes out lost 3kg fucked my body up and ive irritated everyone around me and i even went clubbing hahaha i hate being sad. being sad is so fucked up i hate sad people so i started hating myself a little. thats the worse, hating yourself. AND SHOUT OUT TO GENGEN AND MUCHACHA THANKS FOR THE GENTLE LOVE tyng and cel has been fucking me up with tough love lol im rejecting all tough love ya right now i need gentle. my parents are still on holiday and it has made this breakup easier to deal with i know they'll be sad af if they see me crying n then ill cry more bc they are sad too haha o how love works but i did tell them over skype/whatsapp and i cry a little each time SO GUYS PLEASE STOP ASKING ME WHAT HAPPENED BC WHEN I TALK I CRY AND LOSE MY APPETITE. which reminds me i need to go get my license asap ive spent so much $$ cabbing out past midnight this past week.

i am not as sad anymore but of course i still am, theres this dull nagging in my heart i cant rlly describe it. ive decided im not going to get into a relationship anytime soon i need a break but having said that IF LEROY COMES BACK I AM LAUNCHING MYSELF INTO HIS ARMS AGAIN HAHAHAHAHAHA I FUCKING LOVE YOU BABY HAHAHAHAHA OK BYE I NEED TO EAT.

some pictures of how ive been spending my week obviously not with igen everyday wtf thats just creepy but no one else posts pictures so yes this is it HOW AM I SO CHIO EVEN WHEN IM SAD HAHAHAHAHA KK BYE

 #fbff dats fucking best friend forever so much passion FUCKING BEST FRIEND FOREVER

 #cantlaughattyngnomore #sian

 #restingonacarisbetterthansittingbytheroadside

#350power #richkidsdoitbetter cel n i #backseatbitches